March 29, 2020

Hey loves! 

The past weeks have been crazy. I guess they probably have been for most of you, too. Over the past few weeks, I had to make a few difficult decisions and I ended up packing up my entire life in 24 hours to leave the UK and go back home to Germany. But let us start at the beginning. 

When I finished my term, the first signs started to occur that my final term of my second year may not happen as it normally would. But instead of being told to leave the university and go back home, my university told...

February 16, 2020

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When I returned to YouTube after losing Mümi, I made a video about a typical day in my life. I did not expect it to get as many views as my other videos normally do since I had been away from YouTube for a few weeks. Instead, it got hundreds of thousands of views and my channel passed over one million views across all its videos. 

I had videos get a few ten thousand views, but never anything in the hundreds of thousands. On the one hand, I was so proud of having so many views. It was a great comeback...

February 9, 2020

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When I got back to Cambridge after the winter break, I walked into my dorm room and I was completely overwhelmed. I had actually extended my time at home after we lost our rabbit Mümi because I felt like I needed some more time with my family to deal with the loss. But grief is not something you can schedule and turn off when it is time to focus on school or anything else. 

As you may have seen in my dorm tour video, my room is filled with rabbit-related decorations: 

My rabbit was a big part of my li...

January 31, 2020

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I have my (not so rare) moments of imposter syndrome where I go down a spiral of 'I don't belong here' and 'I probably don't deserve to be here' and my absolute favourite 'My admission was probably a mistake.' But my occasional doubts about my talent have never related to my gender. 

I am twenty years old and I guess it is a privilege that I can say that no one ever treated me different because I am a woman until today. It should not be, but I was reminded of the validity of the sexism so many of my...

January 21, 2020

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There is a guy in Chicago, probably currently struggling to get it together to actually get his PhD in Physics. He and I met on my first day at St. John's College, Cambridge and we somehow became friends. Now, one and a half years after talking to him for the first time in the buttery that morning, we are close friends and we text a lot. 

Since he was a graduate student at the college, he left after the last academic year and he is now doing his best to get his PhD. Given that he is so far away, I ca...

January 14, 2020

Hey loves! 

I have put off writing this post for as long as I could. I recently turned twenty, but I was incredibly blessed not to have lost close loved ones to death - until recently. Many of you have seen my (slightly spoiled) rabbit on my social media and blog. Mümi was with us for over ten years, meaning she was with me for over half of my life. 

She was always there for me. My parents' divorce made some of my middle school years quite hard for me, but I always had her. I laughed with her and played with he...

December 16, 2019

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I am currently reading Cleo Wade's Heart Talk* (thanks to one of my lovely friends who got me the book as a gift) and this one quote stuck out to me:

Clean out your thoughts -

they have the power to cover

your entire life in dirt.

When I was younger, I was quite shy and I guess it was mostly due to my insecurities and not feeling 'good enough.' Over the years, I have realised that everyone has their insecurities, but most of us try not to talk about them as if that would make them go away. Writing thi...

December 10, 2019

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Cambridge undergraduate admissions interviews are taking place as I am writing this post. During the interview season, I tend to get a lot of messages through my blog and on social media about the interview - what it is like, what you should or should not say, what will get you admitted, how to prepare... 

Chances are that most of the people asking me these questions are perfectionists - because if you managed to get the grades to get an interview here, you worked very hard for that. And most people...

December 3, 2019

Edit: This post has been sitting in my drafts for a while, because I wanted to take my time to think about whether or not I should post it. I have now decided to post it and I would like to warn you that this article touches on serious mental health issues. 

Hey loves!

Receiving messages from you guys through my contact section is one of the best things about writing this blog. Most of the messages I have received have been incredibly kind and many of them made my days. Unfortunately, I occasionally receiv...

November 21, 2019

Hey loves!

It has been quite a while since I last wrote a post on here. I have not forgotten about this blog, but whenever I write a post, I want to take my time writing it and reflecting on the things I write about. The past few weeks were very busy and so I decided to take a little break from writing this blog in order to make sure that my posts stay reflective and that I enjoy writing them. Cambridge tends to get very busy around mid-term time since that is the time when much work is due. 

Although the past...

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