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The past weeks have been crazy. I guess they probably have been for most of you, too. Over the past few weeks, I had to make a few difficult decisions and I ended up packing up my entire life in 24 hours to leave the UK and go back home to Germany. But let u...

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When I returned to YouTube after losing Mümi, I made a video about a typical day in my life. I did not expect it to get as many views as my other videos normally do since I had been away from YouTube for a few weeks. Instead, it got hundreds of thousands of v...

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When I got back to Cambridge after the winter break, I walked into my dorm room and I was completely overwhelmed. I had actually extended my time at home after we lost our rabbit Mümi because I felt like I needed some more time with my family to deal with the...

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I have my (not so rare) moments of imposter syndrome where I go down a spiral of 'I don't belong here' and 'I probably don't deserve to be here' and my absolute favourite 'My admission was probably a mistake.' But my occasional doubts about my talent have ne...

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There is a guy in Chicago, probably currently struggling to get it together to actually get his PhD in Physics. He and I met on my first day at St. John's College, Cambridge and we somehow became friends. Now, one and a half years after talking to him for the...

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I have put off writing this post for as long as I could. I recently turned twenty, but I was incredibly blessed not to have lost close loved ones to death - until recently. Many of you have seen my (slightly spoiled) rabbit on my social media and blog. Mümi...

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I am currently reading Cleo Wade's Heart Talk* (thanks to one of my lovely friends who got me the book as a gift) and this one quote stuck out to me:

Clean out your thoughts -

they have the power to cover

your entire life in dirt.

When I was younger, I was quit...

Edit: This post has been sitting in my drafts for a while, because I wanted to take my time to think about whether or not I should post it. I have now decided to post it and I would like to warn you that this article touches on serious mental health issues. 

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It has been quite a while since I last wrote a post on here. I have not forgotten about this blog, but whenever I write a post, I want to take my time writing it and reflecting on the things I write about. The past few weeks were very busy and so I decided to...

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It has been a rather interesting week for me - I was home alone because my mother was travelling, I re-binge watched Killing Eve, and, oh yeah - almost forgot - I was called a nazi on the internet. I usually check my creator space on YouTube once a day to see...

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When I opened up my Twitter feed last morning and saw the BBC's report that the UK government would ask the Queen to prorogue Parliament, I was shocked. I retweeted it with a comment and then decided to wait for a little to see what would happen. 

When the Que...

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I was initially planning to publish a blog post about a book I read, but publishing this post now simply did not feel right. My cousin and I travelled to Hong Kong together last week and we are planning to spend a few weeks here as a summer vacation. As many...

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A few weeks ago, I shared with you guys that I left Cambridge University due to a mental health issue. To be more precise, I was diagnosed as clinically depressed. I was actually diagnosed with this illness months earlier and had already left Cambridge in Apr...

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Do you have a friend you used to hang out with but now, your chat has been inactive for months? What started as awkward ‘how are you?’s and one-line answers slowly turned into less and less activity. Until you both gave up. And moved on.

Being back in my Germa...

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I left my rabbit Mümmeline (short: Mümi) with the vet on Tuesday because she needed to have surgery. Mümi had a tumour on her cheek and it got bigger and bigger over the past few months. We were initially advised against the surgery since Mümi is already 10 y...